| I want to cry... |
[Apr. 10th, 2003|10:10 pm] |
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Today was a boring day. End of testing, though. Tomorrow back to normal schedule. Yay. No. Really.
I am having serious relationship problems. I am afraid to lose the one I love. Very Afraid. I despirately want to cry, but thanks to Zoloft, I cant. Dont know why. I just want to cry and get it out my system. I just want to curl up in bed with him, lying on his chest and listening to his breathing. I just want to be with him. But he's under so much stress right now, it seems an email here and there is too much to ask.
One half of me says "You love him! You know you do! Just have patience!" while the other, in a voice like my mom's, says "You deserve better! Find someone who is worth all of this, because he is not! Find someone who'll be there when you need him!" The voice of my wants and the voice of my needs.
I cant choose which to listen to. Its too hard... |
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