| Tonights Thoughts |
[Apr. 15th, 2005|11:07 pm] |
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So I am getting a new car. Well, its not new, but to me it will be. Our current prospect is this little gold Cavalier this asian guy was selling. I love it, its adorable.
I am very glad to be rid of the hunk-a-junk of a car I had before. What really grills me is that my dad didn't care that I was stranded at one am because the car he provided for me was a lemon. It really upset me. He doesn't care that his daughter is driving an unsafe car that could stall on the highway, leaving her a sitting duck for anyone to hit?? What kind of father doesn't care if his daughter's car is safe?? Mine, apparently. It hurt. I haven't spoken to him since we talked on the phone about it. Well, yelled. That was two weeks ago. Not that that is a long time for my dad and I to go without talking to each other, because it definately isn't. But he has called - once I hung up on him and once I refused to pick up the phone when my sister told me he wanted to talk to me. I was afraid I was going to break down again.
I am tired of breaking down. Doesn't matter what the problem is or even if there is a problem. I just break down and cry and cry and cry. And the guy I have ins't even in my state. So the only comfort I have right now is my kitty... not that that's a bad supporter to have. She is the best.
Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be normal. Will I ever be able to deal with things? Will I ever be happy? Most of the people reading this, if anyone is, probably think of me as Stephaney, the quirky, happy, fat girl. Cuz that's what I want people to think. Well, not the fat part... but... I just want to be normal. I want to be happy. |
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