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Mrs Strum, one of our more prominant customers, had to put down one of her toy poodles today.  She had two little ones, Penny and Romeo.  Romeo has been really sick for a long time and he was ready to go.  She hung around for a while and we all ate lunch with her.  We all loved that little shit.  And her dogs are her life.  It was a sad time.

I'm having a hard time, with my eating, with money, with myself.  I hate myself and my life.  I have no money and I cant pay my bills.  Rent is coming up soon.  What am I going to do?  Since I am going to be moving soon anyway, the thought of selling some of my furniture has crossed my mind.  But I dont know.  I just want this to end.  I hate my life.  Things get good for a few days and I think I'm going to be ok, then things ALWAYS get bad again.  No good mood ever lasts.  I fucking hate it.  I need money and I have no way of getting it.  God what am I going to do.