I've been in a stupor for the past few days.  Cutting more often.  At least once a night.  My wrist just itches for it!  More likely it itches because prior cuts are healing but thats besides the point lol.  But yeah.  Been purging even with the tube (using my old mastery of knowing how to replace it myself) and cutting every night.  And today was just hard.  I dont really want to get in to it but dinner especially went badly.

I'ts just hard to find that motivation again...  I had it not a week ago.  Now I feel like I'm just cruising through treatment and not making any progress.  Going there every day as if it were school or a job.

I have a headache, I'm going to go read and go to bed early.