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[Apr. 24th, 2008|09:02 pm] |
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Today was another lazy day. I had planned on getting out to scour the neighborhood for possible jobs but alas, it rained on and off most of the day. So I couldnt walk around. Instead I watched True Life and read more HP. I havent read it in so long its like reading it for the first time. Good stuff. Genius, that JK Rowling.
Feeling more comfortable here every day. Thinking more and more about staying. Wanting to more and more. I have a few doubts of course - biggest being what can we do about my babies (if I'm here long term I need to be able to keep them with me...), and what will it mean to venture out on my own again (as in not live with family), and will this relationship work/last (and if it doesnt, what happens to my living situation). And the relationship itself would be different than I had with Jacob. Well, actually, not really since I was a sub to him in essence... though in no stretch of the imagination would he have been considered a Dom, much less a respectable one. But it would be different. Not in a bad way, just different. And its been years since Cheryl first trained me, so that confidence (and skill) I had in being "one of the best subs She's ever trained" has almsot evaporated. Thought about trying to contact Her again but I lost her sn. I wish I hadnt, could use Her help.
I'm going to spend the day with Mom tomorrow. I'm going to cut Romeo's hair and Mom's going to cut/color mine. I think I'm going to go back to my favorite black. I've let the black fade out and I dont like my natural dull brown. Then I'm going to try and convince her to reactivate my phone (with my money of course, just through her plan). And maybe we'll rent a movie or something. Reading HP is making me really itch to rent OotP, because I've never seen it. So that'll be fun.
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