Current mood:	depressed
Current music:	Sarah McLachlan - Fallen

So this is bottom...
I was fired on Tuesday.  Because I wasnt performing like I used to, because of my eating disorder.  And because I was fired, Dad is kicking me out.  Mom wont take me in and I dont know about Grandpa, I'll find out later today.  But I'm betting the answer is no.  And so, I either have to find a place that needs a roomate or I'll be going to a homeless shelter....  I dont know what to do.  So many times in the past fourty eight hours  have I seriously considered suicide.  I'm in debt I cant pay, no one wants me anywhere near them, I'm seperated from my babies, I cant control my eating disorder, I have no job and so have no insurance anymore, I have no car and soon will have no place to live.  I have no idea what to do and I feel paralyzed with fear about the whole situation.

I had Lisa take me to the library today though, which is where I am right now (god forbid I use their computer).  And I've gotten some work done.  Some leads on people looking for free-rent roomates in exchange for housework and stuff.  So that would be ideal.  But we'll see.