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[May. 19th, 2008|04:36 pm] |
Messed up.
I was supposed to be on a fast today, after my mess of a weekend.
But then my mum was all sweet and bought me a really nice lunch.
I thought 'bout pretending that I ate it and just throwing it out...
...but that made me feel guilty. So I've just eaten it.
Not too mad, it was probably about 250 calories.
And anyway, I need something in my stomach to help me revise.
And I don't want to mess my metabolism up today, 'cause I'm going out tomorrow with my friend, and when I'm with her I feel a million times better about myself, so I won't feel guilty or bad and I'm pretty sure I'll give in and eat.
I don't know why I'm so happy recently.
I can't help it.
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[May. 19th, 2008|03:10 pm] |
When iwant2bsoskinny pointed out that we need more support, I am trying to make much more of an effort to get on here, and reply to everyone. Its true. We need more support. We are all here for EACH OTHER not just for ourselves. So everyone please make an effort to support everyone.
On the other hand, I'm done with my period, and now I'm working to get my binge weight off. I binged and went on my period (which makes me heavier) at 126 lbs. I am at 128 lbs right now. I feel very gross, but I just need more patience. I want to hear everyones progress! Stay strong everyone, and I'm going to try to do the same
Alex |
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| calories burned |
[May. 19th, 2008|08:07 am] |
what's the highest amount of calories you have burned at the gym?
mine is 800
it's monday
perfect day for a fresh start
so far i've had 2 cups of coffee- 10
and cereal- 120
hmmm not that bad... |
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[May. 19th, 2008|09:42 am] |
So what's your favorite music for grounding/root chakra work?
What about for the other chakras, for those of you who work with them? |
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| such a waste.. |
[May. 19th, 2008|03:33 pm] |
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I cant believe i did it.
:(
yesterday i promised myself i would skip lunch.. so what did i go and do??? i ate lunch! i had strawberrys, raspberrys and blueberrys and a LOAD of ice cream. so im gueesing that was about 300 or so callories. i ate all that having had breakfast too- 25g of special K, i suppose thats not much, but it feels it.!!!
ive taken 4 fat burning tablets and 3 diet pills so far today, im hoping this works a little. i doubt it will, but it makes me feel better, like im doing something to make up for it.
the maths exam went okay though, so im happy about that. more revision for english literature tomorrow though! thats the one im worried about, there is just so much to learn! good luck to anyof you who are also doing that tomorrow :)
i hope your all doing better than me, i suppose tomorrow is another day, but right now it doesnt help. i just want to be thin.
stay strong, think thin.
love to you all xxxxx |
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| Noob Post. I NEED YOUR HELP! |
[May. 19th, 2008|08:17 am] |
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Hi, I'm sort of a noob. My intelligence is probably never going to be as comprehensive as this community's enireity but that is the reason for my question.
I need your help with a matter of dire urgency.
I'm going to buy a motorcycle within the next month and I was wondering if anyone had any advaice on getting a helmet on over my ears. I've got 7 piercing (3 in the right and 4 in the left) and I was trying on helmets the other day and I tried to get it around them but I pulled the backing off one of my 18g studs. Although it won't be a problem with my earskins, I have 3 18g studs, and 2 14g conetipped horseshoes. I'll be wearing a full face street helmet, otherwise the earring problem wouldn't be..... well a problem.
OMG I DON'T WANT MY EARS RIPPED OFF JUST FOR MY BIKE.
( The pics... ) |
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| I think you will like this:) |
[May. 19th, 2008|04:50 pm] |
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| this abc diet is great:) |
[May. 20th, 2008|10:55 am] |
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i love this diet its so easy to follow im only on day 3 and ive lose 5lbs already :) it really does work jsut gota stick with it! thanks for posting the diet its great:) thank you :0
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| Irrational? |
[May. 19th, 2008|04:35 pm] |
Maybe change is just discovery.
Maybe words are just guilt.
Maybe fear is just admittance.
Maybe tears are just tricks.
What if loss is just strength.
What if sadness is just sight.
What if advice is just resent.
What if happiness is just denial.
Then in my dream you touch my hand.
It's then I see I have to be alone.
Like candy-coated grains of salt.
Like anti-depressants down my throat.
Maybe pain is just regret.
Maybe depth is just depression.
Maybe love is just suicide.
Maybe anger is just passion.
What if obsession is just kindness.
What if cruelty is just confusion.
What if poverty is just deception.
What if hatred is just caring.
Then in my dream you touch my hand.
It's then I see I have to be alone.
like candy-coated grains of salt.
like anti-depressants down my throat.
So if I stand still am I really falling?
Like candy-coated grains of salt.
Like anti-depressants down my throat.
B. '04
More of B.'s writing. |
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| ...more Katie Cook icons! |
[May. 18th, 2008|11:37 pm] |
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Here are a couple more Star Wars icons from the batch I did last year!
 
Those, along with a some Heroes, LOTR, and one Harry Potter icon can be found here. Hopefully I'll get crackin' on some more. |
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[May. 19th, 2008|02:05 am] |
i was back on track, then came my birthday and my boyfriend (cake, a special dinner and for some reason i ate a huge lunch too)
then came prom
(i decided to cook dinner and had desert, and ate breakfast,)
today was the worst though,
i had breakfast, huge lunch, and a ton of snacking,
i didn't even keep track but i know I had at least 2000 calories for a day this weekend,
oh, and i haven't been to the gym since WEDNESDAY
i need to get myself together,
i know i gained so much wieght (again) after losing it (again)
my hoodia,that was supposed to come last week, was shipped thursday and should be in tomorrow, SHOULD BE, i am hoping it will help, if not just as a placebo ,to stop me from stuffing my face,
STAY STRONG! |
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| 72 Star Wars Icons |
[May. 19th, 2008|12:02 am] |
28 Sith Icons
44 Jedi Icons
Teasers:
  
Please comment if you like what you see, and if you wish to take any, feel free- just remember to give credit. If you're unsure about how to give credit for an icon, just check the profile of this community. And please: no hotlinking. Thanks, and I hope you enjoy the Icons:
Click *here* to see my sources. |
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| I'm sorry that I'm so messed up. |
[May. 19th, 2008|12:00 am] |
Don't hate me, when I'm under the ground.
Is there anyone on here that has gotten over SI-ing for a LONG time, and/or over depression and suddenly relapsed on everything? And maybe there wasn't even a valid reason.
Compared to the first reason I fell into depression (father was an alcoholic/drug addict + parents divorce + moving) my problems now seem miniscule. All I can think is that since I never saw a therapist during these times, and self medicated through hurting myself, I never truly worked through the issues - I only buried them for a little while. I have issues now still, but I thought I had made it through the worst.
I'm wondering if I should seek professional help. I'm scared to say anything to my parents (I would definetly go to my mom first), but I think I might need it. I don't think I can get through this alone this time. And to be honest, I don't want to. It's so exhausting.
I wish I didn't feel so out of control. |
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Uugghhh...sorry I can't respond to anyone's posts, but I'm just too emotionally tired. I had 850 calories today. My boyfriend keeps fat-free croutons in the house - 5 croutons equals 30 calories and that can add up if you add them to meals! Bread is such an enemy when counting calories and if you have IBS. My stomach does NOT like soy, dairy, wheat or red meat. Good for an ED, huh? |
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| starting over. |
[May. 18th, 2008|08:52 pm] |
i havent posted in sooo long! but ive been on everyday just reading.
i love this place too much to EVER leave :]
sooo tmrw im going to start abc.
wish me luck?
i went grocery shopping today and bought
a lot of healthy food and low cal drinks.
so ill be all set! i cant wait.
my really good friend is having a beach
party this summer so that is HUGEEE motivation
to look good for that. i dont want to feel
like a fat tub of lard. ew gross. especially
considering ive gained 5lbs. sick nastyyy.
i just need to buckle down.
i have a HUGE dance recital on wed. its 70% of my
final grade and i cant wait. the other 30% is written.
last week i was nervous about how i would do
but now i feel really confident about it. & i know i
wont mess up because i choreographed some of it. :]
we have a modern piece, a jazz and a hip hop piece.
i feel really good about all of them. goshhh i
cant wait! im cheesing so hard right now
thinking about it!! :] hahaa
wish me luck!
ok im doneee. byeloves.
think thinnn :D
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[May. 18th, 2008|08:44 pm] |
Anyone have any idea what they were filming in Kirkwood today?
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| a quick hand treatment |
[May. 18th, 2008|08:32 pm] |
A Quick Hand Treatment
Hands are the most visible parts of you, but they also take a
lot of abuse. You use them in everyday activity, and yet, they
are the ultimate accessory. You must give them the same
attention you give your face.
* Soften your hands even while you do the dishes. Add a little
almond oil (about a teaspoon) to dishwater. The water will
soften rough skin while the oil seals the moisture.
* Slough off dead skin cells with a solution made of sea salt
lemon. Brush it into hands with an old toothbrush. Do this
twice a week to soften hands and remove discoloration.
* Wash hands thoroughly with warm water, then, using a
coarse washcloth, rub briskly. While skin is slightly damp,
apply a mixture of one teaspoon honey and one teaspoon
olive oil. Place hands in small plastic bags, then in a pair of
cotton gloves for thirty minutes. The heat helps the treatment
penetrate.
* Warm a cup of milk in the microwave for thirty seconds (or
until warm, but comfortable to the touch). Soak your hands for
five minutes to strengthen nails and hydrate skin. Not only is
milk loaded with lactic acid, a natural alpha hydroxy acid that
gently exfoliates dead skin, but its high calcium content will
strengthen fragile nails.
sometimes when dieting our nails and hair take a toll, http://www.pro-thinspo.com/beautytips.html
for more tips and tricks. http://www.pro-thinspo.com/proanatipsandtricksindexpage.html
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[May. 18th, 2008|08:30 pm] |
i can't even breathe
i've been holding in these tears for too long
i'm still looking for my moms anxiety pills around the house
i feel like i have no one anymore, no one who will understand
i just finished watching the entire first season of the show "Skins"
watching the first episode of the second season right now
i wish i had a Sid
i need a Sid
he's amazing
anyone else know this show?
i can't stop crying
i'm such a fucking failure
only dropped 3 pounds this week
probably just gained it all back from my binge at lunch
i need someone to talk to me
anyone
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| Korriban |
[May. 18th, 2008|05:48 pm] |
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x-posted to ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) starwars and my own journal:
I spent much of today recording and mixing up some sound files based on a Korriban adventure that I found on the Wizards of the Coast site for adaptation into my Star Wars Table Top Roleplaying game. Since I recorded them I thought that some of you here might enjoy them -- Even if you don't play the game if listened to in order it makes for an interesting story. Here's a link to download the files. Obviously...if you are one of the people whom are in my game you should restrain yourself from downloading and/or listening to the files as it will upset your fun times.
Credit goes out to the author of the original story and the people at Free Sound Project.com for making such things possible:
Korriban: Planet of Lost Souls
Feel free to use them for your own Star Wars game--I'd like to hear if people are amused by them.
Cheers,
Mr. Money |
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| Call for Advice |
[May. 18th, 2008|11:35 am] |
So, in working through my short-stories I've found I have a problem:
I often gain, in the revision process, an incredibly intimate relationship with my characters and plot-lines.
While this is infinitely useful, I find that I end up taking entire events for-granted and under-explaining them to a large degree.
In all of my reviews, single sentence explanations that I believe sufficient have been almost universally confused for metaphor or just completely missed.
Were the problem not so recurrent, I would believe my audience to be a set of poor readers (for example, "He arrived at the place"; response "I don't know where he is"). Given that so many of my readers have been unable to discern my plot and character-motivation in the fist several drafts, however, I am convinced that there is some fatal communication-failure on my end.
How do you make your characters this deliberate (or deliberate enough) once they've become like nuisance-room mates? And how do you make a plot explicit that has grown as second-nature as doing laundry?
I think that I might be suffering some intellectual incest in my revisions-process, but I assume there is also something more concrete on which to focus.
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